All alone, just the beat inside my soul.

If you don’t like how your life is going, change it! 

If you are not happy, if you hate life, then obviously you are doing something wrong.

“Life sucks anyways so might as well be a asshole” is what he said to me last night.

No. Life sucks so maybe you should change the way you do things. Maybe you should stop smoking so much weed…fake weed at that. Maybe you shouldn’t do other drugs that are harmful to you. Maybe you shouldn’t always get drunk alone. Maybe you do these things because you are sad? Well make some new friends. You know you have the ability to. You are a very likable person. You know one person who could change things for you. I know that for a fact because that person is me. Not happy where you are in life? Go back to school. Get some more education. Make a plan for yourself. You are always upset and hating life when you have a fiancée who just pretty much made you propose to her? You would be happy, or at least not hating life if you were actually in love with her. Break it off. Find someone you can be happy with. Someone you actually want to spend time with. Not someone you live 45 mins away from, and seem like you dread whenever she comes over to stay with you. 

Life sucks because you don’t care enough to change it. Life should not be so terrible. It’s NOT terrible. You just need to make things work for you. And everyone has the power to do so. 

I have been in a rut lately because I am in love with a man who (i doubt) loves me back. Who has someone else, and who is ruining his life one step at a time. I am in love with this guy, and I do not know how it happened so fucking fast, and I don’t know why. But I do love him. This is something that just needs time to heal. To get over. Time is all I need to be happy again. But I am happy with my life, where I am, what I am doing, and what my future holds. I love life. And you should too. 

That is all.